We're All Different.

"My one desire is that each of us should each be judged apart and that conclusions about me should not be drawn from routine." -Michel de Montaigne

I wish I could control how I felt sometimes...

"I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
-Marilyn Monroe

People.

Why is it that people in your life come and go? It's just so damn easy to say you don't care when in fact, you really do... Forgetting and trying to let go is such a hard thing to do. I miss you. I hate these trivial little occurrences.

Only Time Will Tell.

Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

She said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong, all wrong, but you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you if you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made,
What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight, tonight. You've got me.

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you if you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

Oh... the weather outside is weather...

Paul Rudd... such a funny guy. Especially in 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall' hahaha. And he was so cute on 'Friends' as Phoebe's husband. He's definitely on my list.

Mmmm... Chai Tea!

Ray Lamontagne - Hold You In My Arms

One of my favorite songs ever. This is just absolutely amazing.

i feel empty on the inside.

It's Going to Be Okay!

I'm not scared anymore. I've come to the point where I don't really care anymore. Whatever happens happens... because what's meant to be, WILL be. There's no point in worrying about it. Everything happens for a reason. Life goes on. You take what experiences you had and learn from them. And... that's life. Do what makes you happy. Because happiness is a state of mind. Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

Lost and Confused

It's just no use wishing for something to happen... when you know it never will. I guess this is why I have such a negative view on life sometimes... I'm tired of being let down and getting my hopes up. I'm tired of everything. I just want it all to end. Why is the search for happiness a neverending journey?

I Never Fucking Learn

It's a dumb vicious cycle... It will ALWAYS be a dumb fucking vicious cycle.

"honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love." -a lot like love

Time is of the Essence.

I've come to realize that life is really short. This week has passed me by as if it were the wind. The series of events that have happened these past few days have made me realize quite a few things that I'm going to share with you...

Hold on to those who really matter to you, who really care about you and love you for who you are. Forget about people who mistreat you. It's really not worth it in the end. Don't be afraid to be yourself. Don't dwell on the past. Live life with no regrets... and don't let little things bring you down. Do whatever it is that makes you happy. Life is too short to play it safe all the time... Take chances, be risky. If an opportunity presents itself, take it. Don't just let yourself watch time go by.

"Being happy isn't having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things like wearing these pants or getting to a new level of Dragon's Lair - making those count for more than the bad stuff. Maybe we just get through it... and that's all we can ask for."
-Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

It's a Funny World We Live In.

"how about a magic trick?" -the joker

"nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy." -scrubs

This was an absolutely beautiful, beautiful movie. I loved it.

More Than Meets the Eye.

So, I was watching Transformers last night when I was doing my nails... and oooh is Josh Duhamel sexy. Anyways, when the hell is the sequel coming out? I really want to see it... now. Kthanks.

Happiness is a State of Mind.

I haven't been this happy in a while. Usually being home alone for a really long time I get that "I'm actually really bored" feeling which leads me to overanalyze things and then I get into one of my moods and sometimes I'll end up having a mental breakdown. But as of lately, I've been really content just being by myself. It doesn't bother me anymore... and I haven't been letting things get to me as easily. I think I'm actually learning to stay positive... it makes things a lot easier.

On another note, Kim leaves today to go on a week long cruise to the Bahamas... lucky ass. I'm jealous, haha. She's going to come back all nice and tan so I'm going to end up being the only one out of the darlings who stays being pasty. Sarah is back in town today so I'm excited to see her. I haven't seen her since October or something.... it's been a while.

Boats and Birds - Gregory & the Hawk

If you be my star, I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine, I live to let you shine

But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by

If you be my boat, I'll be your sea
A depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
Ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free, I live to make you free

But you can set sail to the west if you want to
And past the horizon till I can't even see you
Far from here where the beaches are wide
Just leave me your wake to remember you by

If you be my star, I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine, I live to let you shine

But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by